Dum Dum Da Dum ~~Update #1


I’m busy doing “research” for my daughter’s virtual wedding. . . .finding so many wonderful things I want to share with you, Dear Reader.   At the moment, I’m temporarily overwhelmed because I’d like to have them all, but even a virtual wedding has to have limits.  (drat!)

Oh dear, a thought just passed through my mind — maybe I’ll have to plan more than one! :))

See you soon!

Dum Dum da Dum


I’m so excited!  My Lovely Daughter (MLD) announced her engagement last Saturday.  I know she doesn’t want to make a big thing about it…but I, in my role as Mother of the Bride (MoB), am probably three times more excited about planning her wedding than anyone else, including my daughter and her groom.  They want a wedding without a lot of fanfare, so it’ll probably be fairly small.  However, I (on the other hand) am free to plan a virtual wedding that could eclipse the British (sadly) marriage of Diana and Charles.  I promise not to go totally wild……maybe just moderately wild.

As I travel through the ether to find only the most perfect things for her virtual wedding, even (perhaps) some that will actually be included in her planning, I’ll share it all with you, Dear Reader,  a few of…My Favorite Things.

PS ~~ I’ve included acronyms for my daughter and me, but I will probably continue spell them out because I like the way they look as I type them…  ;o)

In The Interest of Honesty


One of my favorite blogs is Creature Comforts and Ez is someone I admire tremendously.  When she started this openness and honesty thing I was reading all the other blogs and feeling such respect for everyone who was telling things that they were afraid to put on their blogs.  Today it hit me that I have blogs of my own and even though I’ve been pretty open on all of them, there are still things I haven’t mentioned for whatever reasons I have.  So today, I will tell you five things that I am afraid to tell you:

1.  I live every day with the pain of knowing my son took his own life.  What I haven’t told anyone on my blogs is that he hung himself.  He did it just before Christmas in 2008, but it is still like yesterday in my mind.  I expose a lot of my feelings on my Pinterest board “Scott No Matter What”

2. I don’t write about being lonely.  I am 65 years old and live alone…and it looks like I’ll be that way for the foreseeable future. I am very lucky to have a daughter who is devoted to making my life better.

3. I worry about my finances.  I live on my Social Security and am working on getting my degree online and I am accruing a huge amount of student loan. My intention is that I will do grief counseling when I graduate.  But my secret is that I have done nothing about trying to arrange to do my required internship to get my clinical experience.  I keep “planning” to do it.

4. Even before I lost my son I suffered from clinical depression and have been on medication for it for years.  Thank God for Prozac!  I tend to have highs and lows, but manage to get through the days one at a time…sometimes it’s more like one hour at a time.  That’s something I don’t tell anyone.

5. I am a virtual recluse.  I do get out of the house, but not on a regular basis.  In fact, last month I stayed home so long my car battery expired and I had to have AAA come to start my car so I could go out!  I just got myself a new camera because I think it’ll give me a motive to get out and take pictures. I loved photography when I was in college and I want to feel that enthusiasm again.

There…five things I don’t write about.  I don’t even talk about them!  So, now my life is pretty much an open book…except for a couple of things I never talk about at all. In fact I try not to think about them, so they live in a dark corner of my mind.  That’s a sixth thing I don’t want to tell you. I do want to tell Ez a big thank you for beginning all this and to Jess for telling her own secrets.  It’s a good thing and we, (that’s me and the other blogs I’ve read) are better for it.

By the way, I’m really not SuzySomething.  I’ll continue to use it because this site says that’s who I am, but my name is really Sara Kate.

I’ll be writing five things on my other blogs, too.  Here are the links www.suzysomething.tumblr.com and www.suzysomething.blogspot.com I hope you’ll come by and visit.

One of Those Days


Ever have one of those days…when it seems like whatever you do it’s not right. It may not be wrong, either…it’s just a feeling of ‘not right’.  I’ve been trying to learn how to insert photos in Pinterest, from my desktop, and I have to admit defeat.  Even when I save the image as a jpeg file it doesn’t work.   Thus, I give up in good grace and acknowledge that I’ve been beaten.

Though I’ve given up on Pinterest (for now)  I’m going to try to put a photo in this post!  Maybe I’ll have better luck. I’ve been sort of thinking about writing about the Fairy Realm and have been collecting images that I might use in the story (the plot of which hasn’t been developed…yet). Here goes:

My main character

She doesn’t even have a name yet. (before I forget, the image is from Imgur, but in my research in the interim I’ve found that it was taken by photographer Liva Saule and was originally in color. It’s available at  photoworld « après  daaart.wordpress.com/category/photoworld/page/6/ )  If you have any suggestions what I should name her, the floor is open!  I think she looks pensive so the story will have to explain why she isn’t flitting around like fairies are supposed to.

I’m satisfied with what I’ve done here for the day…just more semi-thoughts and thinking out loud.

SS

I’m Looking for a Way to Not Do Homework


This qualifies!  Earlier, I was ‘ Pinteresting’ and spent a good amount of time rearranging my boards into alphabetical order. Yes, my OCD is showing. I know it and don’t care just now. I just wish that I could apply it to finishing the paper that’s due tomorrow, the one I’ve done all the work on, references etc….but have only managed to write the introduction. Yeah, that paper.

Tomorrow is another day, and like Scarlett, I’ll face it tomorrow. I will be one very busy lady and up burning the midnight oil.  That’s an old metaphor that I don’t see anyone using these days.  I like to use the words and feelings of the past in my blogs. It’s part of my love of words. In keeping up with the technology, I’ve extended my love of words to loving fonts, too.  Thoroughly modern me!

I have another photo (from photographer Pamela Ullmann, and available at http://www.linkedin.com/in/pamelaullmann ) to share that sort of fits in with my love of words:

Actually I really like the smell of old books…all dusty and musty (that’s another word you don’t often find), and begging for someone to take them off the shelf just one more time. It wouldn’t even matter if no one read them again, just to be off the shelf one more time.  I have to confess that I am not the person who ‘helps’ old books.  I have a Kindle and I do my reading wherever I happen to be, such as standing in line, waiting at the pharmacy, anywhere I have to spend time I would otherwise feel was a waste.  It works for me, and I love gadgets like the Kindle.  It gets a bit expensive now that book prices have gone up, but it’s worth the price considering the convenience of having it with me. (Amazon will love me for writing about one of their major sellers)

Well, I’ve wasted whiled away enough time that I can now say it’s time to get ready for bed.  I’ll be reading A Farewell to Arms by Ernest Hemingway. It’s been years since I read it and I assure you, it’s definitely worth reading again, and again.  Hemingway has a style all his own and the words are like syrup, flowing one into the next.  Needless to say, I am enjoying reading it!

Off to read,

ss

Happy Hearts Day


Valentine’s Day has always been a favorite of mine. Over the years I’ve spent a small fortune on cards and postage…as much as I used to do at Christmas every year.  Hallmark has priced me right out of their market, and postage has gotten so high that I pay all my bills online.  However, this is the first year that I’ve sent ecards to all my valentines.  This seems a little cheap to me, but I think that it will become more acceptable as postage rates continue to rise (and so does the price of cards at Hallmark).

I downloaded a lovely valentine to include here, but I guess I am still in the early learning stages when it comes to including media files into my post.  Once again, I’ll keep trying.  If any of you are familiar with Pinterest, you can find lots of valentines in Sara MacFarland, and the Hearts board at www.pinterest.com

In the meantime, know that I’m sending warm thoughts from my heart to yours.

SS

It’s Monday Again


After spending 45 minutes looking for some “Good News” for a change, I’ve given up.  Must be because it’s Monday. If you have something happy to report, please leave a comment.  Happy news doesn’t have to be international news.  Happy news can be found in families everywhere…sometimes it is just a night when a new baby lets her exhausted parents sleep uninterrupted.  It could be a night when everyone is home for dinner and there is conversation.  It could be eating popcorn and watching a movie.   I’m just looking for something good to tell all of you!

My thoughts today aren’t.  For once I can’t think of anything that tempts me to get up on my soapbox about.  Of course it is Martin Luther King day, any comments I could have about that great man have already been said by someone else. Probably someone else far more eloquent than me.

Today is “clean out the closet” day and I am once again procrastinating. I really don’t want to even start this project. The closet really needs it, but I don’t, at least for today.  I spent most of yesterday playing with Pinterest. I love this site (pinterest.com).  I can go shopping without spending a cent. I tried to upload an image to share with all of you…but my wordpress skills are still pretty rudimentary, just the basics.  As I go, I learn. (that applies to everything I’ve ever experienced and it’s a good thing!)But, here I try again…wish me luck!

Alas…but failure is just another challenge!

Happy Monday to you all

SS